Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Being of Service...

                                                            ...To Others~

For the past few months I have been focusing my energies on learning gratitude for the act of being of service to others for the right reasons.  In my past I did much for others, however I did it all for the wrong reasons; I did it to be needed, to be loved.

Today while I love myself it is important to me to still be of service to others and to do so with an honest intent to simply be of service.  Feeling gratitude for being of service is a true gift, it allows me to see the magic of helping another simply for the sake of helping someone in need.

I have been practicing this in every area of my life.  While at my sisters I try to be as much of a help to her household as possible.  I have done so without telling her my goal of being of service, rather just doing it and needing no acknowledgement or thanks from her.  I have found our relationship has grown in many ways from this honest intent to be of service to her.

While out in public I practice being of service in little ways; allowing someone to go ahead of me in the check out line at the market or signaling someone to go before me in traffic.  I also try to be of service to Gaia, our Mother Earth by picking up garbage when I see it, by stopping and spending time with her gifts, noticing her beauty.

Well yesterday I was able to take this a step further due to my being able to walk better from losing this weight on my new diet.  I went downtown to the Family Homeless Shelter here in Santa Cruz, Ca. and signed up to volunteer 4 to 6 hours a week of my time to being of service to the homeless.

I feel so blessed that I am able to do this now.  I am excited about meeting all the wonderful people that so many of us walk by each day with such indifference.  I have met some amazing people down on their luck in my life time and found that they all have a story, like I myself had one the times in life I was homeless.  I met a homeless man the evening of the Baby Shower while I was outside having a smoke and we talked for about 15 minutes while he told me all about his daughter who he loves and misses much.  This man was rough looking, an older gentleman with sores on his face and hands, dirt on his clothes.  As I sat listening with my heart and looking into his crystal blue eyes I saw his youth in his beautiful eyes that lit up as he spoke of his daughter.  I would have missed this beautiful moment if all I had seen were his dirty clothes and sores.

So beautiful you are my Stella Star
I thought of my own daughter while listening to him speak of his.  He rarely see's her as his life is not one that allows him to be a big part of his daughter.  He is not resentful of that, he wants what is best for her and I felt him so strongly on that want.  I too wanted what was best for my own daughter when I chose adoption for her.  My heart met his during those few moments of conversation and I saw my own deep love of my daughter in his love for his daughter and was reminded of the universal love our Creator feels for us all, all children of the Universe.

You bring me so much Joy my Love~

I woke up this morning to new pictures of Stella, moved to tears and laughter with each photo I felt such gratitude for her Fathers for giving her such an amazing life.  I am truly blessed to have them in our daughters life and in mine.  Stella is getting so big, she is so beautiful.

I love you Stella Star, every second of every moment of ever hour of every day of my life.  I love you all from a place of gratitude for all that is in this moment and in this moment there is so much to be thankful for.  Have a most blessed day~

One Love
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