Wednesday, September 19, 2012

I'M NOT AFRAID!!!

Some of ya'll might remember a video I made almost 2 months ago of me working out!  I was really scared to show that video to the world because I felt like my workout was lame compared to other video workouts.

Well that lame workout has gotten me here to where I am today!  Now instead of sitting in my chair to work out I am standing up, I have lost 34 pounds and counting and most importantly gotten out of my wheelchair!

I made another video this morning to share this progress, I am in my pj's, don't care... I'm not afraid!

The lyrics to this most uplifting song by Eminem ring daily in my head as I keep pushing to reach my goals by overcoming my fears with love one day at a time!

I was not able to post this one on my Challenge Channel even though it is the radio version of the song, but that is okay.  This was more for me than for the Challenge anyways, the challenge gives me encouragement to face my fears, I give me the courage to follow through!  You can't vote on this one my friends and that's okay too!  I just appreciate your support and I love you!


video

You can visit my Youtube channel at http://youtu.be/cCc2Qqikloc

Marley even got in on the fun with me, haha!  I have learned so much on this Journey about the power of overcoming our fears by loving ourselves enough to shake all those old beliefs that keep us locked in our own prisons, in our own minds.  I don't care what others think about me regarding judgments, I care about how I feel about myself based on my intent and actions.  I have to be good to me, to you, no matter who you are because that is what loving me is for me!  One of my favorite quotes today is...

“What other people think about me is none of my business .” ~ Simon Cowell

I've been through to much in my life to break, I am stronger today than I have ever been.  This is my AWAKENING, this is MY LIFE!  And I am living it for me and mine today! I believe in me and no hurdle is to tall for me climb over it today because learning that I can keep it real, be me and love all of that is the greatest gift ever!  I got a long way to go but you know what... Each step is it's own miracle for me so I feel like I'm already there!

Thank you Eminem for helping me with your song that I love and listen to every single morning!  Thank you ViSalus and my Support Team for lifting me up always, for giving me the tools to take this a step further in my recovery and getting my life back!  Thank you Jacquie, Murphy, Tamar, Kim, Charles, TT, Debra, Peggy Sue, Theresa, William, Denny, Jim, Diane, Karen, Jessica, , Kathy, Jenny, Shannon, Michelle, Starla, Layla, Jeff, My Kids, My Baby Daddies and Stella for all believing in me, standing by me and reminding me that "I GOT THIS" when I forget!

I love ya'll from a place of courage to keep on keeping on and wish for you the same feelings of self love that I hold today!

One Love
Lelania


"Not Afraid"



[Chorus:]
I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid)
To take a stand (to take a stand)
Everybody (everybody)
Come take my hand (come take my hand)
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just letting you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road (same road)

[Intro (during Chorus):]
Yeah, it's been a ride
I guess I had to, go to that place, to get to this one
Now some of you, might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take the sting out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'ma let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say I'ma do something I do it,
I don't give a damn what you think,
I'm doing this for me, so f-the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if it thinks it's stopping me
I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts, don't try to ask him why or how can he
From "Infinite" down to the last "Relapse" album
He's still shitting, whether he's on salary paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shits his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a f-you for Christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the Earth, he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt, and fuck the whole universe

[Chorus]

Okay quit playing with the scissors and s-, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth, for that
F-your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last "Relapse" CD was ehhh
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm trying to say is get back, click-clack, blow
Cause I ain't playing around
It's a game called circle and I don't know how, I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still trying to figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't, this f-ing black cloud
Still follows, me around but it's time to exorcise these demons
These mother f-ers are doing jumping jacks now!

[Chorus]

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now! (now)

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly, I probably did it subliminally
For you, so I could come back a brand new me you helped see me through
And don't even realize what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they could do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers
And drop dead, no more beef flingers
No more drama from now on, I promise
To focus solely on handling my responsibilities as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof, like my daughters
And raise it, you couldn't lift a single shingle on it!
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub, and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar
I'd shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazing at stars
I feel amazing and I'm

[Chorus]
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    1. Thank you Harry what a blessing to have you reading my blog I am truly honored my friend~ You have been so good to me and I will never forget that! One Love~

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