Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Fly High~

Something happens when we release all the pains of past.  A moment of realization repeats itself in the lessons of letting go and forgiveness.  The biggest lesson of all comes in forgiving ourselves for the guilt we carry is far heavier than the pain caused by the actions of others.  We can focus on the actions of others and often do yet we avoid seeing our own actions and pain caused to others and often do so by keeping our focus on others.

When we do some serious soul searching and get to the root of things, begin to heal through loving of self, begin forgiving self we begin to understand that we are only human and in that see the humanity in all others.

I have carried much pain and resentments in my life for the pain of feeling used, betrayed by others.  I have also carried much guilt for my own actions; including not loving myself enough to teach those in my life to treat me better.

I carried so much pain that I came to a fork in the road before this journey.  One direction was a dead end and had no outlet for me.  The second option which was this journey required me to let go of everything and begin anew.  Today I raise my hands to the heavens and give thanks for my courage in choosing the second option and beginning this journey.  It wasn't always easy; neither was the way I was living before this choice.

In a world that can be overwhelming at times, sometimes we just need to remind
ourselves to... Breath Love!
In my lives course there has been many ups and downs, more downs than ups.  I have lost many relationships, ended many relationships in my life.  Here I sit today in a whole new world and all these ups and downs no longer are seen as separate levels of value in my mind and heart.  I recognize clearly the value in it all now.  I am honestly grateful for each part of my life, it all shaped me and led me here to this place of release and freedom.

Learning to love myself does not allow me to continue to hold negative feelings or wishes for anyone in my past.  How could it? How could I claim to love myself while walking through life with judgement toward others; resentments of past pains?  To love me fully I have to understand that my mistakes and trespasses are a part of the life experience  part of what makes me human.  In this understanding and forgivness of self I have fallen in love with me and gained understanding for all others in my life as well.  In forgiving myself I no longer need to deviate attention from my wrongs by focusing on the wrongs of others today.

Forgiveness is the freedom of understanding the need of all things, events and people in life.

I sit here this morning basking in the glow of yesterdays joy, the whole day flowed from one celebration to the next effortlessly.  I slept with the sound of the rain cleansing my soul and woke up feeling at peace with life at peace with me.  In this moment I realize that I am whole, complete and all that has led me to this point has been pieces of the puzzle that constructed this moment.

Fly high on the wings of forgiveness ~ India Arie
Love and Forgiveness are lives most important goals I am learning.  It begins inward and moves outward to all that is.  The real work begins in us.  Time spent trying to change the world around us to protect us from pain is time spent not fully living; time wasted.  Our purpose is not to protect our heart but to strengthen it with continuing to love fully in the face of all heart aches and breaks.  The more time we spend seeing events and people in our life as the problem the more time we waste in reaching a place of inner peace and understanding.  The work is in us, inner understanding, forgiveness and love is key to seeing the truth in all that has and will happen in our lives.

Today I see that, understand that and am reaping the benefits of learning the greatest lesson of my life; forgiveness!

I love you all from a place of equal loving you all, past, present and future.  I know now that my past is part of now and now is part of tomorrow.  I am filled with so much gratitude for the lessons learned on this journey, the ability to say I still love you is such powerful freedom.

One Love
Lelania



India Arie says it perfectly, thank you India for sharing your magic with us all.  This song moves me with every lyric.


"Wings Of Forgiveness"

I just want you to know
After everything that we've been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
That I still love you:

Had to go
Across the water
Just to find
What was here in my heart all along
Spend so much time
Trying to be right
That I was dead wrong

If Nelson Mandela can forgive his oppressors
Surely I can forgive you for your passion

You're only human
Let's shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You're only human
Let's shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

Had to run
To the arms of curiosity
Just to find
What was here in my life all along
I had found that the art of simplicity
Simply means making peace of your complexity

If Gandhi can forgive persecution
Surely you can forgive me for being so petty

I'm only human
Let's shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You're only human
Let's shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

I've searched for romance
Flowers and affection
What I found is a lesson
Of what love really is
Found the game of love is
Not about how much you can take
In fact authentic love is about
How much you can give

After everything that we've been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
I want you to know
That I forgive you
(thank you for teaching how to give)
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
I'm better cuz you taught me how to give

I took a swim
In the sea of guilt and misery
To find myself in an island
In the middle of nowhere
In my solitude
I asked to know the highest truth
And what I was told
Is to thine own self be true

If Jesus can forgive crucifixion
Surely we can survive and find resolution

Let's keep it moving
Let's shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You're only human
Let's shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high, and fly high
Let's keep it moving
Let's shake free this gravity of commitment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

After everything that we've been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
I want you to know
That I still love you
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
I'm better cuz you taught me how to give

I still love you
I want you to know
I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
(And I always will love you)
And I wanna let you know
I forgive you
I wanna let you know
That I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
I just want you to know
I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
And I wanna let you know
I forgive you
I wanna let you know
I still love you
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