I woke up "Just Happy" today. I mean honestly giddy about waking up. I sat listening to music and positive affirmations and kept giggling to myself. I wake up that way most days, some days stronger than others. Today was the strongest yet. I just have this sense of peace inside of me that all is as it should be and unraveling as it is meant to be. Not just in my life but for us all.
Everyday I realize more and more how connected we all are, how one we are. With each fear I face, each pain of past I heal I become more and more in love with myself and this journey of life on "Earth School". I have this knowing inside of me now that life is all about experience, all about opportunities and I am the artist of my life canvas. My feelings and emotions are my brushes, my hearts joy or in the past pains are the brilliant colors I paint each new day with. I am the boss of me :).
|Please know that its not unusual for life's most challenging times to be followed by the best years of your life. ~ Karen Salmansohn|
|Never look down on someone unless you're helping them up|
Today was my first day out since my surgery. It felt good to get out in the sunshine and see people while I shopped and even treated myself to a latte from Starbucks. I made some friends along the way today. I love how outgoing I am in this new me. I was always a people person but held back from introducing myself to others out of my self doubts and fears. Not today, today I just smile everywhere I go. My cheek bones are finally adjusting to this new exercise they do daily :).
|I love you Brandon, thank you for brightening my life :)|
|Brandon, Marley and Me Love and Appreciate YOU!|
The true key was in learning to love me as I was, not just pretending I was a proud big woman. I was never proud, that was the story I told myself and others to take their power away. I hated myself for letting my body get to that point. I hated my life. I had to get real with me to figure that all out. Today I can put my own socks on, hahahaaaaaa and that rocks. Tomorrow I will be doing cartwheels and surfing again. I have a future again, loving me has given me so much to look forward to.
I love you all from a place of being okay with sharing things like this. I know that some will judge me and I am not mad at you for it. I love you too. Life is about the journey, learning that is priceless to me.
Here is my theme song for today and many days. This song is how I feel when I wake up now. Thank you India Arie for another song that speaks to my soul.