|There is only one thing stopping us from feeling joy in all moments of this life... US! When life gives you stop signs, look both ways and keep it moving, the beauty is in the keeping going no matter what rough roads we travel on.|
|Sometimes we have to walk through the darkness to realize the light is in us|
For me I am learning that I can tap into that joy at all times, in fact I am realizing that little effort is needed these days as I am joy through it all. Something changed in me a while back that has only grown stronger recently. I decided to change my thinking at the beginning of this journey and along the way have grown to view all lives challenges as opportunities to rise above, opportunities to practice mastery of character.
|Nothing stopping me today, I love it!|
I have always been a "go down with the ship" typa gal. Loyalty runs deep in me. The problem was I was on the wrong ship and destined to sink repeatedly. The only times in life I bailed ship was when I thought my integrity was challenged by staying aboard. Today I don't board ships destined for the bottom of the sea. I only did so because I didn't love me enough to know I deserved better. I was so busy trying to be loved that I boarded the first thing leaving the harbor that resembled love as I knew it.
Growing up without the love a child should be guaranteed at birth led me down a road of seeking love from those incapable of giving it to me. Never being taught that I deserved love, taught to love myself I didn't realize that all that is needed in life is self love and a relationship of faith with my creator to feel whole, always comforted and safe. An amazing thing happens when we begin to make life happen for us, the break comes from every angle. People want to help those that are helping themselves, people want to see those who are taking care of themselves succeed. I know I love helping someone who is helping themselves. And that's really where it is at my friends, helping ourselves enables us to not only find love and support from others but gives us unlimited opportunities to truly help others. Helping others who are not helping themselves is not really helping them, it is hindering their progress in learning to help themselves!
In building my business I have learned to not want it more for them than they want it for themselves. In the beginning I was doing just that. Now I am building a business with business partners who want it, who's why is strong enough to run through a brick wall. I realized that I can't do the work for them in business any more than I can in life in general. After all it wasn't until I wanted to change my own life that I was able to honestly utilize the help of others in doing so.
|Semaj I am so proud of you and love you so much baby!|
|Loving my Grandbabies|
|Slow down on that road son, I know how you do it, haa|
|He was right, we will grow old bitties together, haha|
I got to spend time with my best friend and sister in every sense of the word Kim, we have over 30 years of history and are both at this awesome place of self journey's in our own lives, sharing that really rocks!
Last night was Rena's first Challenge Party for the beginning of her home based business and it was awesome. So happy it went well for her, but even more so blessed for what happened for me at that party. My daughter Shawntice and her beautiful Mother joined us with my grandson and son the Brandon's, haha. I sat with Shawntice and Noreen sharing all the changes that have happened since I left 11 months ago.
|I love you TC, always baby! You make my heart smile :)|
|Feels good to feel good in jeans again!|
|Jess, so excited that I got to be your guest in your new spot|
|I picked myself up a little house warming gift|
This is my last night in Sac Town, I have a lot of visits to friends planned for today. I look forward to getting home to Mr. Marley and my Sister, however I also look forward to visiting here again and soon. This trip here rocked and I was hit the biggest realization. I no longer carry pain of bad memories here or in my home town of Santa Cruz. When I lived here I dreaded visiting Santa Cruz because the ghosts of my childhood lived there. Dealing with those memories and coming to terms with them has made Santa Cruz home again when I ran away from here to escape the pain I created for myself here. I realized this trip I have put it all behind me and began to truly look forward to life. I can travel to anywhere, there are no more ghosts for me.
Jessica is going to come spend the next week in Santa Cruz with me, this is HUGE! Jess has her own ghosts in Santa Cruz that have kept her from returning there since her last visit with her Father before he passed away. She is ready to face that, with a new grasp and understanding of her feelings and what she knows he would want for her she asked me if she can come stay a week with me, but of course you can baby girl. Blessed to be able to help her through this.
I wake up each day with the biggest feeling of gratitude for where I am. For that alone I feel successful in life. That feeling of gratitude stays with me all throughout the day, each day. Even in the rough moments I have this sense of knowing that I have been given another opportunity, another test to see just how bad I want it, how much I am willing to work for it. When I say "It" I mean a better life, one I can honestly be proud of.
I love you all from a place of joy, gratitude and feeling the love, one love!
Have a great weekend
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