We rode to my nieces game Saturday, just like my Daddy used to he had to play DJ, I had to listen to him as he sang songs he wanted me to hear. I see our Father in him and he sees our Father in me. These past few weeks has been just what I needed, time with my little Brother.
|I love you Little David, forever!|
I used to create images of him in my mind, imagined he would come riding up in some big fancy truck and rescue me and my little Sister from the life we were growing up in. Imagined that my Mom would still love him and we would all be a family again. There was always that part of me missing. I had no idea I had 5 other siblings out there in the world. I am sure I would have created dreams of them too, had I known.
|Brandi was our Dad's girl, she has attached to me big time, follows me|
around the house all day and night. I feel like he is here everyday.
Being here has reminded me that I have family. I didn't know he felt the same way me and Tamar still feel so often. We all wish we lived closer to our own family. We all have that empty spot in our heart, that longing to have our own family close by.
|David and Angela thank you so much for this visit, I love you all so much.|
Little David is the one of us seven kids who had the most of our Father. He was my Dad's last chance in my Dads mind. He really tried to be a better Father with little David and I can see what a difference he made in all our lives now. I love you Dad.
|Little David, Danny, Tamar, Lelania and David Jr.|
I love you all so much, my brothers, my sister, you are in my heart where ever I am. We missed so many years but we were always one, I know that now.
|Brennan Auntie JoJo loves you more, haha|
|Makenzie, I love you so much honey, you make my heart smile each day.|
|My little Sister and our Daddy|
This new move will benefit more than me, it will help my fast growing team in so many ways. While I am still far from my family, my Sister, my Kids, Grandkids, Brother, I will carry them all with me in my heart while I move forward in not only building a future for us all but helping so many others do the same for their kids, brothers, sister, grandkids. That for me is enough to no longer feel pain or regret. I am reminded that all I have been through in life, all that I didn't have gave me so much, made me the woman I am today.
I love you all from a place of gratitude for unconditional love and the courage to give it to myself.
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