|Choose to see the silver lining in every cloud. Life is a Journey, not a destination.|
My big sister recognized me, she remembered me. I arrived about 20 minutes before her youngest son and her Dad (the man who raised her as if she were his own) so I had some time alone with her. I walked in and saw her so tiny, so frail. She always has been a petite woman, unlike my younger sister and I who took after our father and are bigger boned, taller, bigger feet, wider hips.
I sat beside her, told her I love her, was able to apologize for all the time that has passed. I held her small fragile hands in mine and tears fell from both our eyes. She smiled when I talked about our day on the beach at the wharf. When her Dad and Son arrived her Dad asked her if she knew who I was and here answer was the clearest words she said during our visit. She said... That's my sister!
Meeting my nephew for the first time was heart warming. Watching him with her was so touching. He was so gentle, so loving, so caring. I spent a little over an hour with her, then needed to get back to my daughter in law to watch the grand babies while she went to school. I will be visiting her as often as I can. Seeing her while it was hard to see her so frail and barely able to talk was good. I left feeling mixed emotions, part of me sad for her life coming to an end so young: she is only in her late 40s. Part of me confused over all the loss around me and others in my life. Part of me determined even more than before to heal my own liver.
I sat in the car with tears in my eyes and reminded myself that everything is as it should be and that Jesus is by her side through all this. At that moment all of me remembered that we all agreed to be here, that each soul has a journey to walk, experiences to experiences and understanding gained through lessons learned. I choose to see the lesson for me in this experience, the lesson of valuing my relationships, valuing my health, valuing my life. In that I felt gratitude and once again I was thankful for what my big sister is able to teach me right now.
|Loving my Grand Babies|
|I love you so much Renee|
|Organic Fruit Pancakes|
The love of God heals and comforts us through all of it. I remember times in the past where I would have chosen to wallow in the sadness of it all. That choice left me feeling overwhelmed by life, wanting to give up. Today I know that how I feel is a choice and today I know the power of love.
The bad things that happen in our lives can do one of two things to us depending on how we look at life. We can choose to look at the bad and say... "It is all bad!" or we can choose to look at the bad and say... "Okay, what good can come of this bad!" and find the good in it. Even in the worst of situations there is something good in it, something good to come from it if we only choose to see it that way.
|My Grand Babies are so excited about the healthy foods they get to help|
me shop for, help me cook. Involving them makes it fun and everyone
is happy, even the pancakes are happy, haha
|It's a new day, a beautiful day.|
I love you all from a place of new hopes, new dreams. A place of choosing to see the good in it all. A place of excitement to do the work and make the changes needed in my life to help myself and others in my life who need me.